CoNfessiON fRoM bEneAth diS tINy hEaRT..

I never thought of creating my own blog before..I do love reading them..Especially the blogs created by my brother(faizly)..not because im so lazy to create one,i just dont feel that i have so many things to share with all of u..But right now,i know that im unable to keep it any longer..Keeping myself silent for all this while really hurts me..Silence creates illusion,false perceptions and imiginations for the moment of the silence don’t silent the mind!Im sorry bb,ive taken this phrase from your blog but i really cant deny it..trying so hard to keep my eyes close,with the feeling of desolation..while the tears cant stop rolling down my cheeks..how could this happen to someone i love the most?i was consoled by my roomate when she said:"eza,semua ni ada hikmah di sebaliknya.eza kena tabah macam mama eza."thanks lina,wishing u good night as she is sleeping at this moment..im in despair..losing my hope..full of anguish..how i wish i could be beside her,spending all those precious time with her..be the defender for her..cause i can feel how agony and cruel this life could be..IF I COULD TURN BACK THE TIME!im sorry mama if ive hurt u before..i just want u to know that ure never alone,uve eza,bb and abg with u ma..we miss the smile on ur face ma..and if i were given a chance to make a wish right now,i rather be with u..even though that we are separated by a distance,we never be that far..cause i always have u in my heart..i promise myself that ill study hard and be the person to be proud of..ill be back ma..put all ur strength and be strong..we pray for u ma,we never let u feel alone..love u mama…