CoNfessiON fRoM bEneAth diS tINy hEaRT..

i start blogging again..perhaps the mood to study isnt there..with the freezing cold weather out there,i prefer lying on my bed,covering myself with my newly bought lihaf(blanket) since im having terrible flu since this morning..maybe i just cannot adapt myself with the weather here,kinda annoying sometimes..once again,i cant sleep while lina is sleeping with her embryology book beside her..poor lina,sleep tight k?i went home an hour earlier as our organic chemistry practical class ended early than we supposed to..we walk home everyday as it only takes about 20minutes to the faculty..i looked at my phone and the time showed 5.50pm(11.50pm in malaysia)..it soon going to be 20th November which is my mum’s birthday..i tried to call her directly from my cell phone but she didnt answer mine..perhaps she was asleep..i sent her sms and luckily she replied me..my mum is 46 today and i soon realized that time passes so fast that we’re unable to turn back the time..each one of us getting older each day and so do i..im 18 but just in a blink of an eye,im going to be 19..spending 5 more years here,im no longer a small child..no more "merajuk" session..no more teasing with my brothers..everyone will have their own lives..uve grown up eza!but still,no decission making can be carried out..maybe because i was being pampered by my family since i was small..teddy bears,chocolates are no longer my companion..but how should i face the world?im such an introvert..u may find out that i should have socialized more..but it’s really hard to express my own feeling to other people..i wish to put a new complexion in my own life..so that nobody will take advantage and look down on me..fine,there’s no turning back..im caught in the middle,trying to make a brute force on it to forward everything but life isnt that simple..human’s emotions is hardly predict..sometimes it can be filled with joy and happiness;the next is a totally 360 degrees rotation..whatever it is,i still remember this phrase from the best person ive ever met"when the world is spinning,face the world with smiling"..life wouldnt be that miserable rite??insyaallah..last but not least,happy birthday mama..may ur life fills with happiness..