emptyness..
iit was quite a long time since i updated my blog..i was quite busy with my exam n xtra classes dat we had to attend..alhamdulillah jz finished all the examination n now still waiting for the result..hoping the very best from Allah swt since ive worked hard on it,so jz tawakal after dis..Ya Allah,bantula hambamu ini ya Allah..my feeling right now:insecure,clueless,impatient..impatient for wat?blk msia?why should i suddenly feel like not going back to msia even though i miss my mum so much?wat is it all about?ya2,im going home..guess i jz cant think wisely at this moment..red eyes,blocked nose..listening to the song sent by bb-SEAMO:mother..see bb,ur ‘magical’ song makes me cry pagi2 buta..huhu..missing mama la ni..aiyokk..i admit dat im such a truly,badly,deeply manja..easily broke into tears..but after da pnt crying,ill stop n the mood will rotate 360degrees–feeling much better..sumtimes,ice-cream can make me feel better too..b4 dis(in msia),i used to love chocolate flavour ice-cream..but since i came here,i hardly choose which flavour i love the most..strawberry flavour,mango,lemon..ill jz pick up each flavour n mix them up..does it mean ive changed to sum1 dat is indecissive?hmm..i only hope for the best in life..b anak yg solehah,a gd sis to my brothers n a world best dentist in the future,insyaallah..wat i should do right now,put all the strength,change to a better person each day..although i cant do it all at once,step by step shouldnt b any problem even though it might consume so much time..as long as we reach the peak of the mountain..sum1 had told me"kta kena salu berubah jd org yg lbh baik"..baik from which angle?dia ckp"dr segi akhlak n penampilan"ok,i cant be perfect but i still know wat i should n shouldnt do..dia plak ckp"jz because u see urself as the worst doesnt mean everyone sees u dat way"..i know it sounds compicated..em,not dat the phrase is hard to understand,actually this entry is quite confusing i guess..well,this shows how compicated my mind is right now…….
